riskin' it all

6.11.03

riskinitall — Wed, 11 Jun 2003 00:23:50 +0000

This has been a crazy two weeks. I through a small party at my house while my parents were out at the lake 2 saturdays ago. Henry, Jordon, Jesi, Alicia, Henry’s girlfriend all came to my house for the night. We had somewhat of a pool party. Before people started to come over me and Rachel got in a fight over something stupid. We both agreed to take a week ‘break’ the next day after the party. We were all having fun at the party. Eventually everybody started leaving. Before that me and Alicia were talking in the backyard. She said that she didn’t want to go home and wished she had a place she could stay the night at. Since my parents were out at the lake I told here that she could stay at my house for the night. I was going to sleep in Colton’s bed and Alicia was going to take mine. After everybody left I asked if she wanted to watch a movie. She picked out a DVD to watch and the only place we have a DVD player is in my room. So we went in my room and started watching it. As the movie went along she was getting scared so being the jackass I am I made my move and we ended up sleeping together. To make a long story short she told me that she was on the pill before we did anything. A couple of days after that and after we had slept together again she told me that she forgot that she hasen’t been taking the pill for a month and a half. I ended up telling Rachel that I cheated on her and to say the least she was pissed. 3 days after I told her we ended up working things out. Now were at the point now. I should now on the 17 if Alicia’s pregnant. I going to try to take her to planned parenthood and find out sooner. Rachel and me are fighting again so I called her and told her I want to take a break. The reason is because I want to get my crap together and find out if Alicia is pregnant. So this should also be another interesting 2 weeks coming up.

1.14.2001

riskinitall — Sun, 14 Jan 2001 00:10:33 +0000

Dear Journal,
I haven’t kept up with this journal as well as I should have. A lot has happened since I last wrote. I got a labtop and many other things for Christmas. The main reason I started writeing again is because Kenny walked out yesterday. Mom was planning a big night. We were going to put and eat. Mom bought Kenny a present. But Kenny diden’t won’t too. They went in there room and talked for at least 3 hours. They came out and Kenny said he was leaving. We had a long fight, but he left. It was 11:00 when we went to bed. It’s going to be a long 4 years.

4.20.2000

riskinitall — Thu, 20 Apr 2000 00:01:05 +0000

Dear Journal,
I feel so stupid. At the end of the day Rene and me were hanging on each other. She had to go to theater arts. We hugged and I think she tried to kiss me on the lips, but since I’m taller than her I didn’t bend down. She kissed me on the neck. I feel so stupid. I got my yearbook today. There is a picture of her in it. She looks real hot in it. Today we’re leaveing to San Antiono to Fiesta Texas were going to stay in a hotel. Rene wrote me a note that said she wanted to go to a movie or something. I told her I was grounded I got a whole bunch of autographs in my year book. I think I going to tell daddy about Rene this weekend. I am going to tell him who I going to the dance with. I really like Rene. I am going to tell mama about her. I can’t stop thinking of her. She’s wonderful. I’m soaking my toe again. I’m going to try to ask Rene out on a date next Wednesday. On Monday of next week I’m going to Las Colines. Then on Friday I going to Six Flags. Me and Rene are going to partner up. I sort of afraid of what’s going to happen then. I really like her. I’m going to change my voicemail just for her. My bus driver, Mr. Gibson said shes got the goods. I think

4.19.2000

riskinitall — Wed, 19 Apr 2000 04:36:59 +0000

Dear Journal,
I haven’t had alot of time to do much. That’s why I haven’t wrote. Monday I went to Civil Air Patrol. Tuesday I went and talked to the driver’s ed teacher. On Tuesday I asked out Rene. She said yes. You wouldn’t believe how nervous I was in 7th period. I have English with Ms. Dupree. She’s pretty cool. Anyways I was waiting on the side of the school when I saw her. John Voss came right before she did. John is my friends. He’s cool. I tried to act like I didn’t notice her. She walked passed me and I said “Rene, wait up. You want to go out with me.” Then she said, “Are you asking me out” I said “ya” SHe said yes. After that I walked her to her bus. While I was walking her there was a long silence. I asked for her phone number and she gave me her phone number and pager. I haven’t called her yet. She wrote me a note, it told me her schedule. She asked me for mine. I wrote her a note, but I didn’t give it to her. I hugged her for the first time today. She is short. She comes up maybe a inch past my shoulder. Right now I’m soaking my toe. I have to put it in Betadine and warm water for 20 minutes. I did it for 30 so I could write. I guess I’m starting driver’s ed pretty soon. Mama made me call dad for the money. I think I am going to tell mom about Rene next week, I going to take her out on a date. I going to bring it up like this: Ca I go on a date with this girl Saturday. I can’t tell her this week because I’m going to Fiesta Texas Six Flags. Dad’s going to take us. Were going to ride the new Superman ride. I really like Rene. She is hot. She has dark her. Every boy likes her. I try to tell you more tomorrow. Write to you later.

4.16.2000

riskinitall — Sun, 16 Apr 2000 04:32:41 +0000

Dear Journal,
I just got back from church. These kids are trying to get to know me. I guess there pretty cool. I can’t remember any of there names. I still can’t stop thinking about Rene. I took the bandage of my toe this morning. As you learn more about me I’ll tell you some quotes I like and some I live by. “Give me liberty, or give me death.” by Patrick Henery. I believe in liberty. I got to go.

4.15.2000

riskinitall — Sat, 15 Apr 2000 04:27:38 +0000

Dear Journal,
Sorry I had to leave but we went and ate. This girl Deadra, shes the one who is setting up most of the formal, she called me on my cell phone. My dad works at Sprint PCS. That’s how I got me cell phone. I keep thinking about the formal and Rene. I’ve never frenched a girl. I’m afraid when if I kiss her I’ll screw up. I am also afraid if somebody trys to mess with her I’ll have to fight them. I like her alot. That’s all now. I have to go to the bathroom so I’m going to go. Write to you later.

4.15.2000

riskinitall — Sat, 15 Apr 2000 02:13:22 +0000

Dear Journal,
Hi my name is **********. All of my friends call me **********. I am 14 years old and weigh 120lbs. I’m going to turn 15 on May 11. I was born in 1985. My life has had it’s ups and downs. I am in 8th grade right now. I am listening to music I programmed on my stereo. I have 3 dogs, 5 hermit crabs, and a duck. I have a brother and a step-brother. My brother’s name is Colton. Brandon is 17 and Colton is 8. There’s a big dance coming up. It is on May 12 right after my birthday. It is called the formal. The boys are going to wear tux’s and the girls dresses. My and a group of my friends are going to the olive garden. I asked this girl yesterday. Her name is Rene. She’s the same age as me. I have known her ever since 6th grade and I have always liked her. I just found out yesterday she likes me to. Thats why I asked her. She said yes. I think she tried to give me a hug but a ran away. I felt so embarresed. Micheal is the one who gave me the confidence to ask her. Micheal rides my bus. He the only friend I can truly trust. My bus drivers name is Mr. Gibson. He is pretty cool. I am going to get to known him for alot of years. He was my bus driver when I was in 7th grade. He’s going be my bus driver until I get out of high-school. As you can tell I like Superman. I have a hole bunch of Superman stuff my dad Scott got me it all. I don’t think my mom is too happy about it all of it. My mom’s name is Brenda. I live with her. She can be mean at times. My mom and dad are divorced. I have a step-dad named Kenny and a step-mom named Regina. I don’t like Kenny that much. He’s kinda mean, Today I got part of my toe nail cut out. I went to the doctor because I had a in-grown toe nail. It didn’t hurt at all. I’m in this organization called Civil Air Patrol. It is awesome. I get to fly a plane there. I’ve been scuba diving twice. I got to go. I tell you more later.

4.27.99

riskinitall — Tue, 27 Apr 1999 01:58:58 +0000

Dear Journal,
It has been a very long time since I’ve talked to you. This is what has happened. I went out with a girl, can’t spell her name but her last is More. She’s sort of a freak me friends think. I am going out with her for fun, but I am not. A week and a half later she broke up with me. She said I am a perz which I am not and shy. My friends laughed at that. Because I am not shy at all. I have a MST Math teacher named Ms. Hettich. My mom doesn’t like her neither do I. Not many people make fun of me and all those things I said about Mama are not true. She is cool. I am sorry I ever said those things and I am not saying that because I’m having a good day because I am not. I got my progress reports. I am falling every class except for 3. I don’t like Civil Air Patrol that much anymore. I got two hermit crabs when we went to the beach. There is this girl in my math and science class. Her name is Jessica Hager. I really like her. Me and her are friends. She is just like me. I don’t won’t to ask her out because I am afraid that she will say no. If she says no then I won’t be able to talk to her. I really like her. She is perfect. I LOVE HER. My mom thinks I ain’t trying in school but I am doing my best. She don’t believe me. I have opened up to my 1st period teacher. Ms. Sutton. She is cool. My bus driver is getting meaner for some reason. Oh ya, we have gone through 3 buses this year. Life is good except for grades. Signing off.

unknown

riskinitall — Tue, 12 May 1998 01:55:49 +0000

Dear Journal,
Wuz up. I’m 13 now. Changed schools 2 times. Now I am in Jackson Technology School. I don’t have a girlfriend. But there is lots of girls I like. I still love Mom. She’s still cool. Don’t have much to talk about. Bye.

unknown

riskinitall — Thu, 19 Feb 1998 01:47:24 +0000

Dear Journal,
Wuz up or down. I hate Mama. Every time I try to do something right, she takes it bad. I’m thinking about running away. I won’t her to die. I HATE HER! I hope she burns in hell. I’m doing horrible in school. But Civil Air Patrol is going good. Talk to you later, bye.